Dream Again

When one dream dies, dream another dream.

I remember growing up back then I read this quote: “Life is like a ball being dribbled. Sometimes, it goes up. But sometimes it goes down. But remember: the harder you fall, the higher you bounce.”

I’ve embraced that words ever since. When I went through failure, I would remember it would be a drive for me to make a better comeback. As my previous dream for a wedding and marriage has died, all the promises that never come true, I’ve learned learn to …

Trust again.

Hope again.
Dream again .

I still choose to trust that my God is faithful, it is us, as human being, who are faithless. We often miss God’s purpose in our lives because we don’t trust in God enough to do it. Faith is the only thing that pleases God the most. It shows that we believe in Him as our only God, we believe in His power to do the impossible, we believe in His timing is perfect no matter how long it takes.

I welcome my whole new season of waiting upon God’s next promises upon my life. “Wait and see,” He said unto me. Many years before, I used to wait upon the “when” will I marry… but now the challenge of my faith has been elevated to the “who” and “when” will I marry. It’s another level of waiting. It’s another season of stretching faith to Him.

In my mind, when a woman hasn’t known yet her purpose or vision, it will be easier for her to jump and follow a man’s vision that has been offered to her (if he has one!) Yet, for a woman who has already known her specific purpose like me, it provides another challenge to meet with a man who’s vision is aligned and matched with all other factors involved. Deep down, I know that such Godly man I’m waiting for only God can provide. He must has been groomed by God alone.

So what can I do? I will wait. I will wait well … I will wait and trust in God’s faithfulness. At the end I will see his promises to pass. I don’t know about you and your relationship with God. What makes me so trusting in Him, or faith as we call it, is actually a gift. Only God who works within us to make us believe. And that faith grows only as we feed on His Words and put it into practice. Throughout the Scriptures God has proven again and again to many generations that he is a faithful God who will carry out His promises.

“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” -Ephesians 2:8-9 [NKJV]

Then the LORD answered me and said: “Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.” -Habakkuk 2:2-3 [NKJV]

The waiting may be long, the waiting may be hard. But love the Promiser more than his promises. Love God more than the things that you long for, it will make the waiting season becomes fruitful. In my current waiting period, I learn to be content for more time I can use to read His words, more books about many topics, more people to talk with. I choose to grow and make this season as productive and as beautiful as possible. As I said at the beginning, I choose to dream another dream. Not because I don’t want to marry again, but because I want to wait well. I sometimes asked to God, “How long?” But you know He’ll never answer such question specifically 😉 So I guess, I have no other option unless to learn to be content to matter what. And yes … I enjoy it. Sincerely.

“But godliness with contentment is great gain.” -1 Corinthians 6:6

You also may have longings in your heart, waiting for it to become true. Yes that longing may be good. But God wants to show you more. God wants you to surrender your heart and trust completely into His hands. For there is no safer place to keep your heart rather than in Him. Humans may fail you, hurt you, disappoint you. Only God alone who can truly satisfy. Enjoy God more than your longings. At the right time, God is more than able to make it happen. Not based on your strength, but based on His goodness. At that time, you have nothing to give credit to you, only gratefulness to God. So yes when one dream dies, dream another dream. When the unexpected happens, readjust your life. And after that,

Trust again.

Hope again.

Dream again.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. -Ephesians 3:20-21 [NKJV]

Don’t Give Up

 “for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes.” –Proverbs 24:16 [NIV]

Many of us may feel difficulty in pleasing the Lord as we fall many times into the same hole of sin. We feel that we are unworthy anymore to serve him at church as worship leader, singer, mucisian, usher, or give testimony in our daily lives. We feel that we would be hypocrites by serving God and also keep doing ‘favorite’ sins. The condemnation is greater when we hear sermons about the end of times which some make us afraid that our salvation can be lost since we fail maintain holiness in life.

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The truth is, God’s love is constant and does not depend on our performance. God loves us even when we are still in sin. Surely he has purpose for us to life a holy life and walk in his love. But he also knows that it is a process. There will be times when we can fall. But what makes us difference from the situation before we believe in Jesus is we can rise again and walk with God’s strength after we fall.

God who lives in us has conquered the power of sins that used to keep us in bondage. But we often trapped in our way of thinking that the power of sin is so huge and still in control. As God’s children, we are equipped with God’s strength to walk in holiness. We have already received the power not to do that sin again by Holy Spirit who lives in us.  What he requires of us is don’t give up when we fall, rise again, approach God, and walk again with him.

Many people think that obeying God is so difficult. We feel that it’s impossible to be as perfect as God. Yes, it is hard. God never call us to force ourselves to be as perfect as him now. He gives us a command in which he enable us to do it if we surrender to him. He wants us to trust that his commands will lead us to true freedom and true happiness.

Walking with God should not be a burden, but a delight. Just like a man who goes on a date with his lover, he should not take it as a burden, but a delight.

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A motivator named Nick Vujicic was born without a pair of legs nor a pair of hands. Since he was a child, he learned to live independently. When he fell, he did not have feet nor hands to help him rise up. But with a strong determination, he used his head and neck to rise his body up. Everyone can fall, but we can choose not to keep staying on the ground. When you fall, just like Nick, you can do many things to rise up again. In the process Nick rose his body up, he failed a lot of times. But he had no other choice rather than to try again and again to rise up. Now he has built a strong neck muscle because of his ‘little’ training.

The world doesn’t end when we fall. The world can truly ended when we don’t get up again.

If you do not give up, you cannot fail -Unknown

Love,

Leticia

Photos by Jennifer Phelps Photography

The Sparkling Eyes

“Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” –Luke 18:17  [NIV]

I have a little hobby of observing children especially those who are under age of 5. When they ran and fell, most of time they would stand up again immediately, run again and laugh. There are also some children reacted differently. When they fell, they would cried out loud. But when they had calmed down, they were quick to forget the previous “disaster” and played again with no fear. But the most interesting parts about children are their sparkling eyes and their ways to look at things in wonder. If parents teach a child to pray, then in the child’s perspective, prayer can do all things. There was a child who found out that his friend and family member were sick, either just flu or wound, the child will pray immediately. After praying, he would ask, “Have you recovered yet?”

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I believe that when Jesus taught us to have a faith like a child it means that we use child’s perspective that there is nothing impossible for Almighty God. Oftentimes as we grow up into adulthood, we face the reality of life, and the child’s faith starts to fade out. We use more of our logics and we assume what many people experience in this world as truth. No wonder then if the eyes of grown up people fade. The eyes are no longer sparkling because there is no faith, hope, nor love.

Many people spend a lot of money to upgrade their looks. But Jesus actually has taught us the recipe of keeping our looks beautiful overtime. The beauty recipe is in keep in faith, keep hoping to God regardless of our circumstances. Our optimism will change the atmosphere around us to become more passionate. The same thing happens when people are filled with love. Their eyes will be warm when they greet one another. These kinds of people are beautiful in the eyes of God and the world. Don’t let your circumstances, your past, your problems to dictate your faith. Don’t let what happens to you rob your sparkling eyes you once had. But let your faith influences them and let your life shines wherever you are entrusted by God.

A hopeful heart in the Lord will always create sparkling eyes.

And that is the everlasting beauty.

Love,

Leticia

Photos by Jennifer Phelps Photography 

I Will Never Forget You

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!” –Isaiah 49:15 [NIV]

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There are moments when you may feel lonely. There are times when you lose people whom we love dearly or perhaps you feel that no one loves you. You may have memories and experiences that convince you all the more that you are alone and you need to depend on yourself in order to survive. But is it true that way? No. God never leaves you. He never forgets you. You are so precious to him.

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” -Deuteronomy 31:8 [ESV]

Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” -Hebrews 13:5 [ESV]

On our verse today, Isaiah 49:15,  it is written that God’s love is deeper than the strongest bond of love between a mother and her newborn child. Though it is very rare, there are some mothers who abandon their children; but God will never do that. I don’t know what happened in your past. You may never know who are your biological parents. You may feel your parents don’t love you. You may feel that no one cares about you in this world. But today, God wants to speak to you specifically, that he is the one whom you have been looking for. He is always beside you and even inside of you, but you just don’t realize it.

God is always in control of your life. “The LORD directs he steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.” (Psalm 37:23-24) God uses all things either good or bad to finish his plan for those who love him (Romans 8:28).  If you love God, then this promise is definitely for you.

God never allows problems come into your life without your capability to overcome it (1 Corinthians 10:13). If you learn to trust and surrender into God, he will strengthen you in the broken areas in your life. Someday you may serve others who experience the same like you did by God’s strength.

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There is a true story about a young woman who love and serve God with all her heart. One night after she served in her church, she walked down the street and almost arrived at her home. Suddenly, a group of men trapped her, they ripped off her blouse, kissed her in may parts of her body. At some point, they abandoned her on the street. They didn’t completely rape her, but inside she was destroyed. When she arrived at home, she took a shower over and over again and cried loudly. She had just served the Lord, but why did it happen to her? She was still a virgin, but she was full with disgust and hated herself a lot. She didn’t understand at all why God allowed it to happen.

Praise God, the woman did not run off from God. Fifteen years later, after enduring a long process of healing, she finally recovered from the pain. She was empowered by God to release forgiveness unto those men. She was married and already had children. She dedicated her life to serve women who were raped. The women she served often yell at her, “You don’t know what it’s like! How disgusting that your body is being touched by stranger!” But this woman answered, “I know what it’s like.” She was almost raped and she had the same feeling before as those women feels now. God uses her all the more in this area of ministry.

Whatever you are going through now, God never forgets you. Psalm 8:4 says, “What is a man that you are mindful of him?” God’s mind is so filled with you just like a man who keeps on thinking on the woman he loves. That is how much God loves you.

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God will make you so strong at the broken places of your life that you would minister to others out of that hidden strength.

Blessings,

Leticia

Photos by Axioo Baby Photography

The Seeds, Soil, and Rain

“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.”

–Psalm 126:5-6 [NIV]

Jesus once described the heart condition of men as soil. There are soil along path (hard soil), rocky places, soil among thorns, and good soil. The same thing actually happens inside our hearts. Many people do not guard their heart well so that when bad things happen in their lives and hurtful words came, they let their heart’s soil becomes dirty. That is why the Scriptures warn us to guard our heart above all else, for everything we do flows from it (Proverbs 4:23) What happen to the unguarded hearts? They become hardened. They are unable to respond to spiritual matter and being led astray to many other directions that will never give true satisfaction.

Jesus himself taught the Word of God in the midst of hardened and stiff-necked nation, Israel. The Pharisees and the scribes who had learned the Law the whole of their lives were indeed had the hardest hearts. Nevertheless God still love people like them.

Are you having difficulty to witness about Jesus in the midst of hardened people? Are you feeling that it’s hard to love them? The seeds of love are actually is in our hands. God has waiting for us to sow the seeds unto their hearts although it seems useless. As written in Psalm 126, we may sow with tears. It is not easy, but we sow as our act of faith by saying that nothing is impossible to God.

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” –Ezekiel 36:26 [NIV]

The hardened heart is like the desert. The rainfall level is extremely low in the desert. Each time the rain falls can be regarded as miracle to people who live on it. One day, the rain (miracle) will fall unto the hearts of the people you have reached out and the seeds you have sown will have a chance to grow. But if you never sow on their hearts, even if the rain falls, the soil will only be merely empty soil without seeds. Nothing will ever grow out of it.

Many people wait for God’s miracle. They long for their family members to be saved, the bad characters of people we love to be changed, circumstances turn out to be better. But the miracle we actually need actually begin with the change of our hearts. Perhaps the person whom you pray for so long will never change until they die. But it doesn’t mean that God doesn’t work. He has worked in your heart so that you can have a heart full of love and forgiveness no matter what.

Keep waiting in the Lord with hope. There is no heart too hard for God to soften. But he wants to use your hands first to sow his seeds of love.

Sometimes the greatest miracle of all is the one that happens in your heart –Priscilla Shirer

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 Blessings,

Leticia 

When God Closed The Door

“Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.” –Psalm 20:7-8 [NIV]

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There are moments in our lives when it’s hard to see hope and when faith fights with doubt. These moments of life can be called the darkness moment, the dreary winter, etc. It feels like everything we have planned so carefully is destroyed by unpredicted distraction. Or perhaps there is a chance that was opened widely before but suddenly the door is slammed right on our faces. Ouch! In this season, it really makes sense for us to think that God is unfaithful to his promises. Perhaps we are tempted to think, “God is so mean to me!” “If God is really good, he won’t let this happen to me.” But is it truly God mean for us? What is actually his plan when he suddenly closes a door in our lives? What does God really think when he makes us waiting for quite some time?

Firstly, we need to plant the truth into our minds, that God is forever good to us. Even when the circumstances try to convince us the opposite, we need to believe that God is good. The whole Bible can give you many testimonies regarding his goodness.

“The LORD, the LORD, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness, keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin.” -Exodus 34:6-7a

“And Jesus said to him, “Why do you call me good? No one is good except God alone.” -Mark 10:18

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Other times, we are too comfortable in our comfort zone that we forget to seek his face. In fact, most of us only seek him when we are in trouble which makes us grow the most in suffering. Thereby, the difficult times are times when we are called the most to seek God through prayer. Just like the sincerest gratitude often born when we have no reason to be grateful, the sincerest prayer usually is born out of adversity when we acknowledge how desperate we need God.

Sometimes God closes the door so that we can stop depending on humans’ strength whether our strength or other people’s and fully depend on him. Some other times, he closes the door to redirect our heart so that we place it at the right place. It is easy for us to love other things more than God in our good times. God knows that the safest place for our hearts are on his lap. He wants to protect us from things that can hurt us when we place our hearts at the wrong places.

God can close the door so that we learn to wait for his time. As the unripe food will taste not so delicious, people who are not ready yet to handle his blessings can only invite troubles. Even the right thing at the wrong timing can become the wrong thing. God always put attention more on inside of us rather than our circumstances. He concerns more to our characters rather than our look. Our holiness, than our pleasure. He loves us so much so that he won’t allow the right thing becomes the wrong thing simply because we are not ready yet.

There is no fix and absolute formula to explain what God is doing in our lives. God works in such a unique way in everyone’s life. But one thing for sure is that if it is God’s will, even the present closed door can one day be opened. Keep fighting and keep waiting for it. But if it is not God’s will and the door is opened for us, it will not be wise to keep going there. Not all the opened door is a chance for us. We can differentiate them as we maintain intimacy with God. God will show us his way step-by-step according to our ability. My prayer is that you might have longing to seek his face and his will in your current circumstances. Trust in the Lord, trust in his goodness. The dark moments is only a season, it will pass …

 

Don’t ask, “Why God?” but ask instead, “What do you want me to learn in this situation?” “God I don’t understand what you are doing now, but keep doing what you want to do.”

“The darkest moment is the biggest turning point in your life.”

Blessings,
Leticia

Photos by Voir Pictures

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Fear Not

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” –Isaiah 41:10 [NIV]

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Is there anything you are afraid of? Fear can be directed to various things, such as fear of heights, fear of poisonous snake, fear of darkness, fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of making wrong decision, and many more. We have natural tendencies to live by fear. But for some of us, the level of fear is so intense until it hinders and paralyzes us. Someone who has fear of failure may not be willing to try new things. Imagine how many opportunities would never be achieved unless he is bold enough to try. But on the other hand, the right amount of fear may help us on certain area. For example, fear of having car accident will motivate us to use seat belt and drive safely all the time. Hence, the problem lies not on the presence of fear itself, but its level of intensity and whether the object of our fear is right or not.

There are 365 verses on Bible which said, “Fear Not.” This is surely not a coincidence. God has designed His Words for every day in a year to be applied. But of course it is not something we can do instantly. But if we are willing to decide to get out of our comfort zone and face the fear day by day, God’s word will set you free eventually from fear.

We can be relax by knowing that God never gives us a command without sending the strength to do it. His command is accompanied by promise that he will always be with us.

“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” –Deuteronomy 31:8 [NIV]

You are never alone. God is always with you. God will fight for you, and what you need to do is enjoying his presence [Exodus 14:14].

One of the sources of our fears is because we depend more in ourselves rather than on God. Those who are mature in the Lord will learn to depend their lives more on him instead of their own. Fear is actually the situation where we are lacking of the right faith unto God. Today, God reminds us that, “I am with you, why should you fear?” Nothing is impossible for God. Whatever now that seems impossible to you, God is able to change it. He sends you this message only: “Fear not.”

As you walk with God, you will find that the more you trust in God, your fear will be more directed to the right things. God is faithful. When he gives you his guidance, he will also give you the strength to do it. Do not be afraid with enemy’s intimidation, but be afraid that the enemy has no fear to you because you do nothing to expand God’s Kingdom.

We cannot expect to have no fear at all, but we can press through the fear whenever it shows up and choose boldly to do the right things.

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Fear not the attack of Satan,

but fear that you never make his hit list.

Fear not the unknown, but fear that you never learn what is beyond the unknown.

Fear not trials and tribulation, fear a life of ease.

Fear not the God haters, but fear the God himself.

Fear not that your messages are not good,

but fear that your messages are not of God.

Fear not what men say about you,

fear what God would say about you.

Fear not attempting something great for God and failing,

but fear rather attempting little things for God and succeeding.

 

Do not live a life free from fear, but live a life fearing the right things –Richard Crisco

Blessings,

Leticia

Photos by Angga Permana Photo