When one dream dies, dream another dream.
I remember growing up back then I read this quote: “Life is like a ball being dribbled. Sometimes, it goes up. But sometimes it goes down. But remember: the harder you fall, the higher you bounce.”
I’ve embraced that words ever since. When I went through failure, I would remember it would be a drive for me to make a better comeback. As my previous dream for a wedding and marriage has died, all the promises that never come true, I’ve learned learn to …
Dream again .
I still choose to trust that my God is faithful, it is us, as human being, who are faithless. We often miss God’s purpose in our lives because we don’t trust in God enough to do it. Faith is the only thing that pleases God the most. It shows that we believe in Him as our only God, we believe in His power to do the impossible, we believe in His timing is perfect no matter how long it takes.
I welcome my whole new season of waiting upon God’s next promises upon my life. “Wait and see,” He said unto me. Many years before, I used to wait upon the “when” will I marry… but now the challenge of my faith has been elevated to the “who” and “when” will I marry. It’s another level of waiting. It’s another season of stretching faith to Him.
In my mind, when a woman hasn’t known yet her purpose or vision, it will be easier for her to jump and follow a man’s vision that has been offered to her (if he has one!) Yet, for a woman who has already known her specific purpose like me, it provides another challenge to meet with a man who’s vision is aligned and matched with all other factors involved. Deep down, I know that such Godly man I’m waiting for only God can provide. He must has been groomed by God alone.
So what can I do? I will wait. I will wait well … I will wait and trust in God’s faithfulness. At the end I will see his promises to pass. I don’t know about you and your relationship with God. What makes me so trusting in Him, or faith as we call it, is actually a gift. Only God who works within us to make us believe. And that faith grows only as we feed on His Words and put it into practice. Throughout the Scriptures God has proven again and again to many generations that he is a faithful God who will carry out His promises.
“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” -Ephesians 2:8-9 [NKJV]
Then the LORD answered me and said: “Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.” -Habakkuk 2:2-3 [NKJV]
The waiting may be long, the waiting may be hard. But love the Promiser more than his promises. Love God more than the things that you long for, it will make the waiting season becomes fruitful. In my current waiting period, I learn to be content for more time I can use to read His words, more books about many topics, more people to talk with. I choose to grow and make this season as productive and as beautiful as possible. As I said at the beginning, I choose to dream another dream. Not because I don’t want to marry again, but because I want to wait well. I sometimes asked to God, “How long?” But you know He’ll never answer such question specifically 😉 So I guess, I have no other option unless to learn to be content to matter what. And yes … I enjoy it. Sincerely.
“But godliness with contentment is great gain.” -1 Corinthians 6:6
You also may have longings in your heart, waiting for it to become true. Yes that longing may be good. But God wants to show you more. God wants you to surrender your heart and trust completely into His hands. For there is no safer place to keep your heart rather than in Him. Humans may fail you, hurt you, disappoint you. Only God alone who can truly satisfy. Enjoy God more than your longings. At the right time, God is more than able to make it happen. Not based on your strength, but based on His goodness. At that time, you have nothing to give credit to you, only gratefulness to God. So yes when one dream dies, dream another dream. When the unexpected happens, readjust your life. And after that,
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. -Ephesians 3:20-21 [NKJV]