Our Love Story [Part 1]

The story which I will write about is more than just a love story nor a fairy tale. It is a true love story [in case you’re wondering whether it exists or not, it does!], the one which is written by God alone, as the Author of Love.

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The reason I write this is because I see so many people struggle in their love life. Some may be in search for their soulmates, some may wait in extraordinary patience, some may in active pursuit without coordinating with God. It leads us to a one-million dollar question whether God really has preserved “the one” for us or it all depends on our own free will while He only provides guidance. I once having difficulty in answering this question. But I always keep in confidence that the all-knowing God will know certainly the best for me. This is more than just talking about whether “the one” exists or not. It does more about how well we know God Himself 🙂 Based on this conviction, I put on my faith in my God and allowing Him to write my love story according to His will. Practically, I prayed and I waited. I listened to His guidance regarding men who passed through my life and I obeyed whatever His guidance was. Please noted here that I obeyed His guidance more than my own feeling. I did not depend on feeling for feeling can be tricked.

The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
-Jeremiah 17:9

There were times when I sacrificed my feelings in order to follow God’s guidance. There were times when I prayed regarding men whom I considered to be with, then I clearly sensed that God said, “No.” And I obeyed it because I simply trust in my good God who knows the best for me. This experience may sound awkward to some of you. Maybe you have a doubt that God really cares about the details about your life. Well, the fact is, He does. He even can number your hair! How couldn’t he bother your life-long partner choices? Okay enough for the introduction 🙂 So here we go, my testimony about what I have seen, heard, and experienced about God-written love story …

I came not from a harmonious family. When you are in that kind of family, it is easy not to trust that there is such thing called ‘true love’. But when I was 15 years old, I accepted Christ as my Savior, and being mentored by Mrs. Gloria Adhitya. She has been the living witness of God to me. I saw her marriage was extra-ordinary and her love story as well 🙂 Her husband was her first and last boyfriend for seven years and their relationship even began with a true confirmation from God. It gave me a glimpse of hope. As I began to look for more ‘evidence’ of true love, I am convinced that those who are truly truly [emphasis added] living for Christ do have a great marriage beyond most couples. By then, it doesn’t merely give me a glimpse of hope, but a fire of passion, a divinely purpose, that I want to have such kind of marriage, and I will [by faith and God’s grace]. It doesn’t stop there. When I was 19, I consumed lots of Christian books regarding Godly relationship, and it shaped out my vision to help young generation to build a Godly marriage, family, and a home. That made me who I am today.

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I was committed to wait to build a relationship until I am ready for marriage. I wanted my husband to become my first and last boyfriend. [Okay, it works differently for some people. We may don’t share the same longing or experience here, and that’s okay!]. But I have faith in it 🙂 Back then, I just knew that I could not build a relationship with Senior High School guy who still depended on their parents for living. So I decided in my heart that Senior High School moment exactly was not the right time to build a relationship. The same thing went through when I was in college. I just had not meet yet with “the one” or I could say “Potential Husband” whom God impressed in my heart. Oh by the way, I have list of characteristics whom I wanna be with for the rest of my life 😉 It’s a hint for praying specifically 🙂 Thank God I wrote it down haha 😀 I wrote this list on April 4, 2010.

I believe that he is a guy who …
1) Loves Jesus more than ANYTHING
2) Has the same passion and vision to serve Jesus and people
3) Always wants to learn and improve himself toward His likeness
4) Loves me as God loves him
5) Humble and not self-centered
6) Honest, reliable, has a good sense of humour
7) Definately not smoking (care for his health)
8) Completely secure, confident, love himself
9) Willing to work hard yet always prioritize family and relationships
10) Good looking 🙂 , tall, white, smart

I want to be faithful even I haven’t met him yet. I know our meeting will be special and I will wait for you with all or my heart. I love you.

The lists should not be attributes to satisfy our flesh. But I tried to be honest on my list (see point no. 10? 😀 but of course, it’s not the top of my priority). We need to ask God for His guidance too. Different kind of faith will be unnegotiable. Why? Because I am deeply convinced that a strong faith in Jesus will be the srongest foundation ever to build a house of marriage.

Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain – Psalm 127:1

The one who share the same burden for ministry and have determination to grow in Jesus will also be my top priority. For I know what God called me to be and being partnered with a man of God will definately support my calling too 🙂 To create an extra-ordinary marriage from the very beginning, we need to partner with man who wants the same thing too 😉

Talking about lists, I was deeply inspired by the list made by a great woman of God, Ruth Graham. At first, she decided that she would be a single life-long missionary unless there was a man whom fulfilled her list as her partner of life [what a high standard!]. In case you’re wondering what were the lists, here they are:

If I marry:
1. He must be so tall that when he is on his knees, he reaches all the way to heaven.
2. His shoulders must be broad enough to bear the burden of a family.
3. His lips must be strong enough to smile, firm enough to say no, and tender enough to kiss.
4. Love must be so deep that it takes its stand in Christ and so wide that it takes the whole lost world in.
5. He must be active enough to save souls.
6. He must be big enough to be gentle
and great enough to be thoughtful.
7. His arms must be strong enough to carry a little child

Wow.. such a poetic list! But her faith was rewarded 😉 She changed her mind when she met … Billy Graham. The one who eventually became one of the greatest preacher on earth.

What I am trying to say here is … God-written love story began with faith which is applied in specific prayer plus boldness. We need to be bold enough to ask for the ‘rare’ thing.. Godly qualities which only a few has. I did not realize where I got such kind of faith.. I guess I was being like a child who trusted fully to the Heavenly Father who is more than able to provide what I asked for. Moreover when I asked for a partner whom I will work with in order to accomplish His mission on earth. He would be more than pleased to give me what He also wants to give at the very beginning 😉

Then what happened after I prayed? I waited. Faithfully. Patiently. I always believe that it is God’s design for a man to initiate a relationship and a woman to wait and respond to man’s initiatives 🙂 Some of us may think that the best place to meet Godly potential spouse is at church. I completely agree with that. It makes sense perfectly. But God can bring up your mate anytime and anywhere. Even in a condition you may never imagine before. My dad enrolled me to a stock analysis course which I often rejected over and over again. I was stubborn enough to decide that ministry would be my path of life and I was not interested to learn stock market. But I obeyed anyway [this obedience led me to God’s purpose ;)]. On the first day of the course I met “him”, one of the lecturer who have achievement already in stock market since he was 17 years old. It was my first time to know who he was. We did not meet often during the course, for he only taught around 3-4 meetings in 3 months. It seemed pretty hopeless to think that we may develop more relationship that lecturer-student. I did not think much either in that direction. Until the day he contacted me ‘accidentaly’ for the first time through short messages. The short message was not for me either.. so we can say it as a ‘lost’ short message whom he intended to send it to someone else. Yet from that moment, we kind of had little conversation for a few times in a week.

I was kind of interested back then. Yet I planned to go to US for a year to study Bible. I was so eager to go until I decided to sacrifice this feeling and just went away. I surrendered that feeling to God and so ready to bear the consequences along the way [Sometimes we are so impatient to wait on God’s timing until we rush into our own plans!] But God’s way mostly different from ours. I wrote the experience of God closed the door in my life in my writing “When God Closes the Door.” Yes, God closed the door when my US visa was rejected. I could not believe it at that moment. It really felt like the door being slammed right in front of your face and your dreams scattered around. It was my gloomy moment in life where God actually taught so many things regarding Him. At that time, he came over to comfort me. Since then, he had been my faithful companion during hard times #hugs. But we did not meet at all. I did not really think that he interested on me since he did never even call nor asked me out. I even sent his birthday present through mail. It was like a sweet friendship ‘with a slight hope of different intention’ at that time. 9 months passed by until He ‘finally’ initiated us to meet on my 22nd birthday 😀 I was so nervous and happy back then …

How would it turn out? I guess I need to stop here and continue later on My Love Story part 2 😀 See you later!

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“A woman’s heart should be so hidden in God so that a man has to seek Him first in order to find her.” – Maya Angelou

Love.
Leticia Seviraneta

Don’t Give Up

 “for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes.” –Proverbs 24:16 [NIV]

Many of us may feel difficulty in pleasing the Lord as we fall many times into the same hole of sin. We feel that we are unworthy anymore to serve him at church as worship leader, singer, mucisian, usher, or give testimony in our daily lives. We feel that we would be hypocrites by serving God and also keep doing ‘favorite’ sins. The condemnation is greater when we hear sermons about the end of times which some make us afraid that our salvation can be lost since we fail maintain holiness in life.

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The truth is, God’s love is constant and does not depend on our performance. God loves us even when we are still in sin. Surely he has purpose for us to life a holy life and walk in his love. But he also knows that it is a process. There will be times when we can fall. But what makes us difference from the situation before we believe in Jesus is we can rise again and walk with God’s strength after we fall.

God who lives in us has conquered the power of sins that used to keep us in bondage. But we often trapped in our way of thinking that the power of sin is so huge and still in control. As God’s children, we are equipped with God’s strength to walk in holiness. We have already received the power not to do that sin again by Holy Spirit who lives in us.  What he requires of us is don’t give up when we fall, rise again, approach God, and walk again with him.

Many people think that obeying God is so difficult. We feel that it’s impossible to be as perfect as God. Yes, it is hard. God never call us to force ourselves to be as perfect as him now. He gives us a command in which he enable us to do it if we surrender to him. He wants us to trust that his commands will lead us to true freedom and true happiness.

Walking with God should not be a burden, but a delight. Just like a man who goes on a date with his lover, he should not take it as a burden, but a delight.

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A motivator named Nick Vujicic was born without a pair of legs nor a pair of hands. Since he was a child, he learned to live independently. When he fell, he did not have feet nor hands to help him rise up. But with a strong determination, he used his head and neck to rise his body up. Everyone can fall, but we can choose not to keep staying on the ground. When you fall, just like Nick, you can do many things to rise up again. In the process Nick rose his body up, he failed a lot of times. But he had no other choice rather than to try again and again to rise up. Now he has built a strong neck muscle because of his ‘little’ training.

 

The world doesn’t end when we fall. The world can truly ended when we don’t get up again.

If you do not give up, you cannot fail -Unknown

Love,

Leticia Seviraneta

Photos by Jennifer Phelps Photography

The Sparkling Eyes

“Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” –Luke 18:17  [NIV]

I have a little hobby of observing children especially those who are under age of 5. When they ran and fell, most of time they would stand up again immediately, run again and laugh. There are also some children reacted differently. When they fell, they would cried out loud. But when they had calmed down, they were quick to forget the previous “disaster” and played again with no fear. But the most interesting parts about children are their sparkling eyes and their ways to look at things in wonder. If parents teach a child to pray, then in the child’s perspective, prayer can do all things. There was a child who found out that his friend and family member were sick, either just flu or wound, the child will pray immediately. After praying, he would ask, “Have you recovered yet?”

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I believe that when Jesus taught us to have a faith like a child it means that we use child’s perspective that there is nothing impossible for Almighty God. Oftentimes as we grow up into adulthood, we face the reality of life, and the child’s faith starts to fade out. We use more of our logics and we assume what many people experience in this world as truth. No wonder then if the eyes of grown up people fade. The eyes are no longer sparkling because there is no faith, hope, nor love.

Many people spend a lot of money to upgrade their looks. But Jesus actually has taught us the recipe of keeping our looks beautiful overtime. The beauty recipe is in keep in faith, keep hoping to God regardless of our circumstances. Our optimism will change the atmosphere around us to become more passionate. The same thing happens when people are filled with love. Their eyes will be warm when they greet one another. These kinds of people are beautiful in the eyes of God and the world. Don’t let your circumstances, your past, your problems to dictate your faith. Don’t let what happens to you rob your sparkling eyes you once had. But let your faith influences them and let your life shines wherever you are entrusted by God.

A hopeful heart in the Lord will always create sparkling eyes.

And that is the everlasting beauty.

 

Love,

Leticia Seviraneta

Photos by Jennifer Phelps Photography 

Amazing Grace

“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” –Romans 5:8 [NIV]

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There is an Indonesian’s proverb which says, “Milk is being repaid by toxic water” which means “Goodness is being repaid by evil.” Yes, our world perhaps has given so many examples on such practices. When we do good and don’t get the appropriate response from others, it will naturally discourage us to do good to them at other time. It is natural for us to feel that way because we are still human in flesh and live in a fallen world.

But, Jesus doesn’t think that way. He died at the cross not when we were good to him, but when we were sinning against him. His love doesn’t depend on our performance or our spiritual life. He loves us just because of his glorious mercy. Grace is a gift to the undeserving ones (unmerited favor). God’s principle is indeed “Toxic water is being repaid by milk” which means, “Evil is being repaid by goodness.” Isn’t it weird? But that is how amazing God’s love for us!

A sinner will never change when we keep showering him with critics, condemnations, and bad behavior towards him. A sinner can only be changed with a touch of amazing love. The song of “Amazing Grace” was created by John Newton, who was raised in a good Christian family but he left his faith and live according to worldly ways. He became a sailor, was involved in slave trade and gambling, and had addiction to alcohol. One day when he sailed, at midnight, his ship was shaking hard against the storm. He ended  up saying a prayer to God to save his life. Miraculously, as soon as he finished praying, the sea went calm. That incident was his turning point of his repentance. He then surrendered his life to be God’s servant for the rest of his life.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost, but now I’m found

Was blind, but now I see

 

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear

And grace my fear relieved

How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed

 

Through many dangers, toils and snares

We have already come

‘Twas grace that brought us safe thus far

And grace will lead us home

 

When we’ve been there ten thousand years

Bright shining as the sun

We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise

Than when we first begun

 

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We are all sinners in front of God’s eyes. But God decides to love us and adopted us to be his precious children. We can do the same thing to people who mistreat us if we realize also how bad we are in God’s eyes. Pray so that God will enable you to love your ‘enemy’ as he loves you. Sow love or ‘milk’ in ther lives. One day you will be amazed by the results.

Sinners do not need condemnation nor judgment.

They need grace expressed in unconditional love.

Love,

Leticia Seviraneta

Photos by Whiskers & Willow Photography

I Will Never Forget You

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!” –Isaiah 49:15 [NIV]

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There are moments when you may feel lonely. There are times when you lose people whom we love dearly or perhaps you feel that no one loves you. You may have memories and experiences that convince you all the more that you are alone and you need to depend on yourself in order to survive. But is it true that way? No. God never leaves you. He never forgets you. You are so precious to him.

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” -Deuteronomy 31:8 [ESV]

Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” -Hebrews 13:5 [ESV]

On our verse today, Isaiah 49:15,  it is written that God’s love is deeper than the strongest bond of love between a mother and her newborn child. Though it is very rare, there are some mothers who abandon their children; but God will never do that. I don’t know what happened in your past. You may never know who are your biological parents. You may feel your parents don’t love you. You may feel that no one cares about you in this world. But today, God wants to speak to you specifically, that he is the one whom you have been looking for. He is always beside you and even inside of you, but you just don’t realize it.

God is always in control of your life. “The LORD directs he steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.” (Psalm 37:23-24) God uses all things either good or bad to finish his plan for those who love him (Romans 8:28).  If you love God, then this promise is definitely for you.

God never allows problems come into your life without your capability to overcome it (1 Corinthians 10:13). If you learn to trust and surrender into God, he will strengthen you in the broken areas in your life. Someday you may serve others who experience the same like you did by God’s strength.

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There is a true story about a young woman who love and serve God with all her heart. One night after she served in her church, she walked down the street and almost arrived at her home. Suddenly, a group of men trapped her, they ripped off her blouse, kissed her in may parts of her body. At some point, they abandoned her on the street. They didn’t completely rape her, but inside she was destroyed. When she arrived at home, she took a shower over and over again and cried loudly. She had just served the Lord, but why did it happen to her? She was still a virgin, but she was full with disgust and hated herself a lot. She didn’t understand at all why God allowed it to happen.

Praise God, the woman did not run off from God. Fifteen years later, after enduring a long process of healing, she finally recovered from the pain. She was empowered by God to release forgiveness unto those men. She was married and already had children. She dedicated her life to serve women who were raped. The women she served often yell at her, “You don’t know what it’s like! How disgusting that your body is being touched by stranger!” But this woman answered, “I know what it’s like.” She was almost raped and she had the same feeling before as those women feels now. God uses her all the more in this area of ministry.

Whatever you are going through now, God never forgets you. Psalm 8:4 says, “What is a man that you are mindful of him?” God’s mind is so filled with you just like a man who keeps on thinking on the woman he loves. That is how much God loves you.

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God will make you so strong at the broken places of your life that you would minister to others out of that hidden strength.

Blessings,

Leticia Seviraneta

Photos by Axioo Baby Photography

The Seeds, Soil, and Rain

“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.”

–Psalm 126:5-6 [NIV]

Jesus once described the heart condition of men as soil. There are soil along path (hard soil), rocky places, soil among thorns, and good soil. The same thing actually happens inside our hearts. Many people do not guard their heart well so that when bad things happen in their lives and hurtful words came, they let their heart’s soil becomes dirty. That is why the Scriptures warn us to guard our heart above all else, for everything we do flows from it (Proverbs 4:23) What happen to the unguarded hearts? They become hardened. They are unable to respond to spiritual matter and being led astray to many other directions that will never give true satisfaction.

Jesus himself taught the Word of God in the midst of hardened and stiff-necked nation, Israel. The Pharisees and the scribes who had learned the Law the whole of their lives were indeed had the hardest hearts. Nevertheless God still love people like them.

Are you having difficulty to witness about Jesus in the midst of hardened people? Are you feeling that it’s hard to love them? The seeds of love are actually is in our hands. God has waiting for us to sow the seeds unto their hearts although it seems useless. As written in Psalm 126, we may sow with tears. It is not easy, but we sow as our act of faith by saying that nothing is impossible to God.

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” –Ezekiel 36:26 [NIV]

The hardened heart is like the desert. The rainfall level is extremely low in the desert. Each time the rain falls can be regarded as miracle to people who live on it. One day, the rain (miracle) will fall unto the hearts of the people you have reached out and the seeds you have sown will have a chance to grow. But if you never sow on their hearts, even if the rain falls, the soil will only be merely empty soil without seeds. Nothing will ever grow out of it.

Many people wait for God’s miracle. They long for their family members to be saved, the bad characters of people we love to be changed, circumstances turn out to be better. But the miracle we actually need actually begin with the change of our hearts. Perhaps the person whom you pray for so long will never change until they die. But it doesn’t mean that God doesn’t work. He has worked in your heart so that you can have a heart full of love and forgiveness no matter what.

Keep waiting in the Lord with hope. There is no heart too hard for God to soften. But he wants to use your hands first to sow his seeds of love.

Sometimes the greatest miracle of all is the one that happens in your heart –Priscilla Shirer

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 Blessings,

Leticia Seviraneta 

A Matter of Heart

“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” –Proverbs 4:23 [NIV]

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Have you ever felt that you were going through a bad day? Nothing was seemed right. From the sun rises until it sets problems keep coming through, people upsets you and disappoint you, and many more. Even a moment after you just have your quiet time there can be something happens that robs your peace immediately. We know that God teaches us to be joyful in all circumstances. But we also know that to put it into action is a whole another level of difficulty. How to guard our hearts to be in harmony with God’s will in practical means?

Let us look what guarding truly looks like. If you have the highest end gadget, what would you do? You will not put it carelessly, won’t you? You will not put it on the public toilet’s floor because you know it will make the gadget dirty and even in danger to be trod upon by others. If you are a typical of person who loves cleanliness and neatness, you probably did not open the plastic cover on your gadget’s screen for some time to keep it clean for a longer time. The thing is, you will treat it more carefully because the gadget is costly and precious for you.

So does with our hearts. Our heart is the place where Holy Spirit lives. Since Jesus has redeemed our sins, our hearts belong to him entirely and he becomes permanent resident in it. Remember that our heart is as expensive as Jesus’ blood! But often we don’t realize how precious our hearts are. We put it carelessly to vain things like wealth, flesh desires, boyfriend/girlfriend. We also feed it with inappropriate movies, gossips, and many more. We put our hearts in places where it shouldn’t be and no wonder that in the end we get dirty hearts in return. But today we have learned this truth, so we can do something with our hearts.

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The practical way to guard our hearts is to guard its cleanliness with guarding our thoughts and make sure that our thoughts are directed to matters which are pleasing to the Lord.

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” –Philippians 4:8 [NIV]

Sins always began in our minds. When we let dirty thoughts creep into our minds, at the same time, we open our hearts to sinful behavior. Hence, the first step to guard our hearts is to keep cleansing our minds with God’s words and good thoughts. If negative thoughts or worries creep into our minds, we have to shift it immediately to the truth, to what God actually says regarding that thought. We cannot never think of negative thoughts, but we can choose not to think about it continuously. Meditate on God’s words every time. You can make Bible verses cards or download Bible applications on your gadgets which you can read while you are waiting in the midst of your activity, while you are at break, etc. My current favorite Bible App are YouVersion and E-sword 😀

Besides guarding our thoughts by filling it with God’s words, we also need to fill our hearts with love. The signs that we have a healthy heart is a heart full of love and forgiveness. If there are still people whom you find it hard to forgive, ask God’s help to enable you to release forgiveness to those people. Know that this process happens throughout our lives. So don’t take it is as something too hard to do. With God, you are able! Keep deciding to guard our minds, to forgive, and to love day by day and we will find our burdens are lifted up. The situations perhaps haven’t changed, but our hearts which stays according to God’s will enables our lives to be filled with joy beyond words could express. God can work more in his children’s lives whose hearts are completely his. Are you willing to surrender your heart entirely to God?

God is the only place where your heart will be safe and unbroken.

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Cheers,

Leticia Seviraneta

Photos by Voir Pictures, Angga Permana Photography, Pinterest